Thursday, October 1, 2009

Life, Condensed.....

wow, so alot has happened actually since the last time i blogged...so lets see if I can condense it some...lol...

that "friend" i was oh-so-worried about turned out to not be a "friend" at all! she called me crying, i ran to the rescue (like usual) and then waited patiently for the knife to be ripped from my back. The audasity of some people just baffles me. She has finally burnt her final bridge and Im certain she will not learn until that man ends up killing her...but again, not my problem anymore...is that wrong of me to say???

28 short days and 27 long nights to go until my baby is home again...damn i miss him.

My mother...(long backround to this story) tricked me into dinner with my grandparents, trickery i wont soon forget....

Both of my spawn are gone for 4 whole days..whatever will i do with myself? lol SLEEP IN!!! this meaning i get up at 8 instead of 6:30....damn i feel old! lol

I have found myself lately thinking alot about the baby I lost that never really had time to grow, and I feel my deep rooted resentments for certain people over that continue to grow deep inside and I cant make it go away...I know, I know, things happen for a reason, and when Bryon gets home we will try again, and he will be able to be here for it, but that still doesnt fill that small empty place inside me where life once lived, no matter how short lived, a life is still a life when it is lost....

Margaret, if you are out there somewhere watching over all of us, I want to say that you are never far from my thoughts and i miss you every day...I wish so badly that I could have seen you, but i know that some day, some how, when the time has come, i will see you again....

2 comments:

  1. We've both been burned by people we thought were friends. Your loss was felt by more than just you. Remember, tell Bryon 'Think Girl"

    I Love You!!!

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